Vivid Dreams

I have been having some SUPER vivid dreams where I can often even "feel" them. For example.. I had a dream I Was in a mobile home breezeway/porch type thing with a whole bunch of people and something bumped in to the mobile home causing it to start to go down a hill towards the next door mobile home. And I SWEAR I could feel the bump. This isnt the only SUPER vivid dream where I can recall the whole thing. This has been going on for several nights. I do not know if it is emotions getting me to dream so vividly or what. I KNOW I AM NOT PREGNANT so that is not what is causing this. Could it be I am preparing to get my period back after 8 months since giving birth? Could it be my thyroid out of control? Could it be I am just sleeping more hours during the night? Sleeping more deeply than I have been? I dont know. I am enjoying sleeping but the dreams are often waking me up.
Another dream I had was that I was sitting in the tub with the baby and had laid him back and yanked him up real hard almost hitting his head on the faucet. That would have been horrible. And I wake up feeling the emotions I would have felt should I had done that in real life. Racing heart etc.
I dont know. "Maybe its a TUMOR" Ugh... All my life I always thought that I had a tumor if something was wrong with me... I am notorious for having that thought. I was always known as the family hypochondriac. I think Ashley is taking after me unfortunately. She worries just as I do about having the worst possible scenario.

Running. Tonite will be night 2. I get anxious all day thinking about it even though I know I will be ok. I can do it!!! I WANT to do this 5K that is in October. I dont know how to prepare Ashley for the Kids Run but it is something I am going to look in to. She would probably really enjoy participating in something like that. I think that is a realistic goal for me. And once I get really good at running, I will be investing in a bra recommended to me by Erica. Once I see where I might drop weight is when I will be looking more in to that. Chris should be bringing me some Ace Bandages to wrap myself up to run. Once I drop some weight and know I will be able to stick to the routine without being a quitter, I Will get my feet sized. That will probably be a birthday present for me! (October 4th!) The main issue right know is eating. I did not eat a healthy dinner last night and did not have a healthy breakfast. I did try most of the day to monitor what I ate. I had the urge to go to a drive through for something completely horrid for me and I refrained! So, that is goal #1 is knowing that I dont have to go to a drive thru for a quick lunch. I bought a bag of lettuce instead, threw some carrot sticks and cucumbers on it and VOILA. I also had 1/2 a tuna sandwich! ONLY 1/2!!! so.. GO ME! ... If only I didnt blow dinner... ah well... whatever. I was alone with the baby.

Our house is in a major chaotic mode. We have part of the bedroom set for Ashley. Mainly, the bed... and all the drawers. Everything else is just piled everywhere. It will all come together... I have to keep reminding myself. The girls keep on getting little knick knacks from grandmas house. Grrr... those make a big mess. Whatever. I will find a spot for them until it is their turn to go to the Goodwill. Sydney and Kiley will be in a room together. Kiley will be on the bottom bunk. I put her toddler bed out in the bulk trash. (bar was falling out of the bottom) so she is officially a BIG GIRL... Wahhh!!!! We also tossed Ashleys bureau that the bottoms of the drawers keep falling out. She will have to live out of laundry baskets until the rest of the bedroom set is here! SOMEONE COME MAKE EVERYTHING FALL IN TO PLACE!

The pest control man was here and he set up some rat and mouse traps. OH MY GOODNESS RAT TRAPS ARE BIG... and they might make ALOT of noise if they snap the necks on those squirrely little things. Eww... I hate rodents. Chris will be the lucky one to carry a snap necked rat to the trash. I WILL NOT do it.

CJ is started to scooch around. Scooch? Did I spell it right?!?! he is on his belly and pushes his little toes on the ground and it pushes him forward... still with his belly on the ground. Not quite commando... 2 more days until he is 8 months old. Where does the time go? HE LOVES to try and pull himself up while holding your fingers. His feet will also do the walking motion sometimes! Only a matter of time... he LOVES to eat paper items. Often leaving residual pieces in his mouth which SCARES me. I have to work on the girls not leaving their droppings everywhere. Let them realize that their room is their litter box and NOT my living room/kitchen counter/hallway/bathroom etc. etc. etc.

Grandma Betty is still in the hospital. I guess they had tried to take out the breathing tube and she did not breathe on her own. Her face, arms, legs are all burnt. She had opened her eyes at one point. Her husband and his step son are all still in the hospital. Chris is working on going out there not this weekend but next weekend. Navy Marine Corps Relief Society will pay for him to go. We just do not have enough personal funds for him to go out there this weekend and another man in his office is on leave this weekend. Prayers are still greatly appreciated for Betty, Alex and his step son that they are able to heal and be healthy again.

Baptism is set for August 10th. I think I know for sure who CJ's Godparents are going to be. It is just a matter of Chris agreeing with the decision. The other issue had to do with the fact that the Chaplain for our base chapel is a woman. She is Presbytarian and I Am Lutheran (Missouri Synod) and I guess the Missouri Synod does not recognize baptisms that are done by Women Pastors or something like that. Well.. I'll be... I did NOT know that the belief system of my church was like that! So, I can call the Pastor at my home church and see if they will accept CJ's baptismal registration should this Chaplain do it. Or, I could just allow the Chaplain to register his Baptism with Washington D.C. ... I think we will most likely do the latter as I am detached for the most part from my home church having moved so much with the Navy. Also, She sent us home with the traditional baptismal vows which are very similar to the ones we used when Ashley, Sydney and Kiley were all Baptized. And some more modern ones. I really like the modern ones. They are more fit for living in todays society. So, now.. to decide who the Godparents/Sponsors will be. They do not need to be present but will be mentioned in the service.