5 Glorious Months of being a Mother to my Son

To me, it doesn't seem like he has changed so much in 5 months. Every day I am still so thankful that I was blessed with a beautiful son. My heart longed to be the mother to a son. Don't think I am not grateful for the 3 beautiful, wonderful, healthy little girls that I have... because everyone who knows me, knows that I adore them with every little piece of me there is... I often wonder if I had had a boy and a girl right off the bat, would I have been done having children? Probably not, but I may not have wanted to play press your luck as easily as I have with having had more than 2. Especially with the fact that my pregnancies always ended up having some totally off the wall complications. My little man is perfect despite everything else going on with him.... he makes me smile, he has 3 big sissies who think he is heaven sent, he has a dad who can't wait to do the "boy" things with his son. (Even though he does most of that stuff with his daughters already) Next month will be the big 1/2 year birthday party... and it is bittersweet to think about how fast approaching that day is... and it will be the last 1/2 year birthday I have with my children being babies...

At 5 months... you weigh approximately 18lbs and are probably close to 27 inches I am sure... you have not yet gotten your 4 month vaccinations... bad mommy.... your eczema still has its horrible moments.... you do not roll over yet but I am sure that is coming soon... I am not going to rush it... you sleep most of the night in bed with mommy and daddy.... you have had tastes of applesauce, rice cereal and formula but you are not yet tolerating it well. So, you are still exclusively breastfed which is a big goal mommy wanted to meet. You growl as you fall asleep. You cry as soon as you wake up. You cry alot.... but I am grateful that I am able to hear you cry. You make me not so sad about my 2 miscarriages because if I did not have them, I would not have YOU... and YOU are perfect in every single way.... YOU make my heart swell... you make me smile... you make me tired... but you are MINE... and I am blessed to have you.... I am proud to be your mommy... and I can't wait to watch you grow and learn, in the same breath, I dont want to rush it...

Happy Month Day my little meatball... CJ at 5 months old (all of these pics taken on the EXACT month day, the 25th)

4 Months old

3 months old

2 months old on his big cousin Fiona's 7th birthday

1 month old, Merry Christmas!

CJ on DAY 1 of Life... 11/25/2007