Early Morning Ramblings

SO, I HAD TO GO AND pick up my absentee ballot today because Boston Children's called and said sydneys pre-op is on the 4th at 730 am so we are going to have to head to boston on the 3rd for sure. So, she will have the pre-op stuff 4-6 hours or so on the 4th... then the procedure on the 5th and that will take 3 + hours to complete.... yup, people messing around inside my kids heart.... geesh... i might have to throw up.... she will be asleep and we have left her in the dark on it.... no need to make her worry. Then she will have to stay in Boston Children's on the night of the 5th and hopefully we can go home on the 6th. this is no fun at all... it is one thing to have the epilepsy and worry about whether or not the school is going to find it necessary to inject her in her rectum with the diastat rectal gel as her peers look on... it is another thing to send your child off to school with a potentially life threatening condition wondering if that could be the last time you see her.... sure it can happen to anyone on any day... but seriously.... i want the procedure done NOW because it is likely her condition will be cured (90%) but i am scared of the procedure and get sick thinking about the what if's about that. both situations are life threatening... but one can lead to a life full of happiness and not worrying about the WPW....
now, i have this absentee ballot sitting here and i have filled out ALL other blocks about the other things people in CT are running for (joe courtney can run for democrat and working family????) so... yeah... i cant bring myself to vote on a president. I dont know what to do... maybe I will just write in my father... seriously... I dont know what to do. I am leaning towards McCain (OF COURSE) but then, if he dies... Sarah Palin would be commander in chief.... and president... and whatever else... and is she ready for it... is the WORLD ready for it??? I dont know. then Barack... and his "hypnosis" ... yeah... been reading up... whatever.
I dont know what to do... Chris already sent his ballot in... Kiley prefers to look at McCain (Grandpa-esque attractiveness?) Sydney says Obama... Ashley says McCain (Grandpa got to her and fed her ultraconservativeness) so yeah... I am rambling.
I am going to a mommy craft thing today with Naihomi at the human services... and then I am going to go walking and put the deposit down on the community center for CJ's 1st birthday party (11/22)barf.
Oh, and I walk 1.5 miles in about 24 minutes. Dont know if it is good or not. But, it is what I can do... I still have a hard time with the hills in the neighborhood since having had the overuse syndrome. I am going to start walking in the cemetery soon... with the girls on their bikes, when I dont have a full schedule right after school. Cause when it is cold, I will have to leave the chump with daddy.